A Little Angel

Well, I had my 1st regular doctor's appointment yesterday and they were unable to find a heartbeat. The fetus was also too small for 9 weeks.

I had a D&C procedure today. The fetus measured 6 weeks, 6 days. Just three short days after our original sonogram. The procedure went fine and I am not in any physical pain. The sadness in my heart is almost crippling though. My heart hurts for the intended parents.

I'm hoping to try again in late May or June. We will see what they want to do. I can only imagine how hard this is when it is your own child. This baby may not have been mine but I did love this baby and wanted things to work for the parents. I'm heartbroken.

Sonogram Day, Part 2

All is wonderful! The doctor said that things didn't look good, but excellent! The heartbeat was at 143 and the baby is measuring ahead of what we actually are. I'm officially 6 weeks pregnant. The sonogram measurements showed us at 6 weeks and 3 days. This is one strong baby! I teared up seeing the little heartbeat on the screen. God is so good. We are so amazingly blessed to be a part of this journey.

Sonogram Day!

Well, today is sonogram day and I'm in the car with John driving me. My heart is beating out of my chest. I'm nervous and I know I shouldn't be. I know this is a blessing from God and all will be well. For many reasons lately, the song "It Is Well With My Soul" has been on my heart. I guess I'm just anxious for confirmation. You'd think the exhaustion, nausea and emotional roller coaster I'm on would be confirmation enough. This pregnancy is already very different then mine with Caden. I had zero symptoms and I remember the same exact feelings of anxiousness. Again, it is well with my soul!